AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHhhh!!!!!

I have the weirdest fears! I have always been afraid of people hiding under my bed and trying kill me. They can only "get" me if my feet touch the floor. For years I have made a running leap into my bed, and nothing has gotten me yet. Another wacky fear of mine is somebody hiding in my closet and waiting to attack me once my eyes are closed. If I closed my closet door, nothing could happen! My room is on the second floor of our house and I am constantly hearing "people" down stairs. For some reason my sense of hearing is amplified at night, making my fear worse! I've always wondered why I possess such silly fears, but I haven't figured it out. I wonder how many people are afraid of the same things...

relax

Right now I'm sitting in English. There aren't any windows for us to see outside, but we know what the weather is. Its pouring down rain, and I love it. For some reason the gentle pounding instantly relaxes me to the point of nearing sleep. I can't explain why a simple noise makes me so happy. All I know is that I would be just content if it rained like this for the rest of the night. Because of this glorious rain, I am completely freed o f my duties to dance at the soccer game tonight! Finding this out brought out a huge feeling of ecstasy. I just love the rain :)

AHHHHHHHHHH Where did the teacher go???

I really really really really really dislike having substitute teachers. I completely understand that sometimes teachers are forced to leave school, but it still stinks! I especially hate it when the subs are creepers. I realize that not everyone knows what the definition of a "creeper" is. A creeper is a person who makes you feel uncomfortable, or is just CREEPY. Our sub today fits this description. Another thing is, in order to be a sub you just have to have a "x" amount of college hours. Any crazy person can be one, and believe me I've seen my fair share of crazy subs. I just wish teachers were superhuman and never missed class!

Dignity or Shame?

"Is it easier to fight with dignity than to surrender in shame?"

This question seems to be fairly simple, but not for me. Feeling shameful is one of the worst feelings imaginable, and I try to aviod it if at all possible. Unfortunately, arguing/fighting is another dislike of mine. For some reason, when I argue I have the most trouble expressing what I feel. I get flustered and upset immediately (this is one reason being a lawyer doens't appeal to me!), and obviously I don't enjoy this either. I guess if I was forced to pick one, I would rather fight with dignity. At least I would be doing what was right, and not something to feel bad about. Even if arguing isn't exactly my idea of fun, being strong in my beliefs is extremely important to me.

money money money MONEY

A green rectangle. That's all money actually is, a green rectangle. It shouldn't be so important to everyday life, but it is. In social situations (high school, jobs, society) money can actually decide a person's social status. I HATE this. If I could have it my way, there would be absolutely no need for money. Things wouldn't be so stressful at home. Paying for college? It would no longer be a problem. I could do all kinds of sports without the worry of extra expenses! I know this isn't possible. It certainly would make things easier if money didn't exist. Unfortunately, money does make the world go round, and I don't for see it slowing down anytime soon.

How rude!

Sunday night I was relaxing, and watching the VMA awards. There were a lot of wonderful preformances, especially the tribute to Michael Jackson, by his sister Janet. Except for the abudance of dirty and disgusting jokes provided by Russell Brand, all was going well. Then, Taylor Swift was given best Female Video of the Year. As she was giving her acceptance speech, Kanye West interupted her. He continued to announce that Beyonce should have won because she had the best video of ALL time. Taylor stood behind him in a state of shock and embarrassment and walked of the stage. Imediately, the crowd booed Kanye. I might not agree with Taylor winning the award, but she still deserved to be treated with respect. Everyone deserves this, no matter what our opinion of a person is. I think it was completely uncalled for, and Kanye should be punished. In the words of Stephanie Tanner (of Full House), "How Rude".

hahahahhaaaa

Laughing could possibly be one of the best or worst things in life. It just depends on what kind of laughter it is. Laughing together is wonderful. Its like instant happiness is filling every cell of your body. Unfortunately, being laughed at is humiliating and a huge blow to someone's self-esteem.
It's amazing how the same action is perceived in two completely opposite view points. I wish we could all just laugh together. It sure would save a lot of heartache. I think laughing improves the quality of a persons life. I can't say that I have any hard medical evidence of this, but I know I feel much better after a good deep bellied laugh. I believe we need to change the saying, "An apple a day, keeps the doctor away," and replace it with, "A LAUGH a day keeps everyone sane!"

Mr. President

Yesterday was President Obama's speech to American students. I really do not understand what the big commotion was about. Why in the world are people so upset about him ENCOURAGING kids to be the best they can be? What frustrates me more than anything is when people are so closed minded about politics, they refuse to even open their minds up to new ideas. I think this is extremely ignorant. I just wish people would not get so silly when it comes to politics!

The Speed Demon

Writing and I aren't exactly what one would call "best buds". For some reason it takes me a million years to write what should take mere minutes. Well...a million years might be exaggerating just a little bit, but lets just say speed isn't on my side when it comes to writing. With this in mind, imagine the horror that overcame me when our first English test was announced. This "test" is really code name for my worst nightmare. I must write a literary analysis in one class period! In the past, I've spent at least a full week working on a paper. How can I possible finish? I'm hoping that i'm magically transformed into a writing "speed demon" by the end of Tuesday. Maybe this dream will come true. For my sake, I sure hope so.

Stress Overload

I'm sitting in my final class of the day, English (the only class I actually enjoy on Blue days). Just thinking about the previous classes gives me a massive headache. With all the crazy courses I'm taking, the workload is making me mad! I'm trying to think back to sophomore year, when everyone promised me Junior year would be much better. Its taken me a couple days to realize this but, unfortunately they ALL lied. All my hopes and dreams of less homework, better teachers, and easier tests have gone up in smoke. I wish there was something I could do to de-stress myself. The only thought that eases my mind is knowing all the other people in my classes are going through the same thing.